Into The Unknown

I brought my bundle of joy home from the hospital yesterday.

I held her close to my chest, more thankful for her than ever before.

Never again would I take a single moment with her for granted.

I’m speaking, of course, about my MacBook Pro.

And just in the nick of time….

Among the changes that are brewing around here, I am meeting with a consultant today to peek at the possibilities of taking my writing to a new level and new venues. I’m not even sure what that might look like.

After nearly six years of blogging, I have been getting the consistent message from Jesus and others that I need to consider taking this writing thing a bit more seriously.  Taking a few new steps of faith in spite of the nagging taunt of self-doubt that plays like a broken record between my ears.

There is a tickle in my belly that feels slightly more like excitement than panic.  Maybe it’s because, like I prayed, things are falling into place and are becoming clearer.  Maybe it’s because in the past 24 hours I’ve been invited to both a study and a conference (by two different people) that center around purpose and confidently moving forward with the passions and gifts God has instilled in me.

At 51 years old, it’s about time, right? (I’m beginning to realize that God, throughout history, often began doing things in and through people when they were “past their prime”, so maybe it’s not too late? 🙂 )

I have this sense that everything in my life up to this point has pointed me in this direction.  Every place we’ve lived, every person I’ve met.  Every circumstance that has shaped my life.  Every lesson learned through mistakes and every aha moment gained through leaning into and trusting the God who has given purpose to each piece.

I feel like I’m ready.

Putting this in print feels frighteningly bold.  But fear of failure can’t be the reason I don’t try.  Not any more.  Life is too short and God’s call is too important.

My prayer?  That God would take His thoughts and impress them on me so deeply that they flow through my fingers in whatever capacity He offers.  That I would fall more and more in love with Him and with His word so that my writing never becomes the end result, but a means by which to get to the end result – His credit and glory.

He gave me a love for words and I want those words to show my love for Him.

Just one little virtual voice looking for new ways to tell on Jesus.

Prayers so appreciated….xoxoxoxo


Psalm 56:4 – In God, whose word I praise– in God I trust and am not afraid.

Isaiah 43:19 – For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.

Jeremiah 32:27 – I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?


2 thoughts on “Into The Unknown

  1. Jana, put that key in the ignition and turn it! He will continue to show you where to head.
    Go get em! Love and hugs and prayers,

  2. Jana, I’ve never met you personally (even though I live a short hop from you in Livermore), but I am so excited to be a prayer partner with you in this. As your words have frequently touched tender spots in my heart, I’ve shared the experience with friends and prayed that the words would touch them too. As you explore the possibility of a deeper commitment to writing, I commit to “being your Aaron.” Through prayer, I’ll hold your arms up through your process. Can’t wait to hear/see how this all unfolds as you continue to allow God to breath life into your words.

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